Okay lately work has beginning to suck again, got written up again over something stupid, I bitched out my department manager this time saying there are more things going around when he's not here or not even looking. I also pressed him on some issues of what could be done instead of people just fucking around the final ten minutes before they go home like filling milk or eggs to help the next person. I finally exploded on my boss, I felt that way atleast... But I tried to keep it at a respectful level and kept on talking making sure to press more onto him to get abit more out of him like why do my hours suck, why are you even going to make a list if some jobs aren't even mentioned from you ever again and expect me to do it, covering more work than what is needed originally and somehow it still ends up stupid and among other things. I do feel bad later about... kinda pressing him on some issues even though he worked an entire day, other workers already found out about it and said I looked pissed. Don't blame them...


I already started looking for other work and alot of it lately has been salesman jobs and usually alot of them are... let's say, you make a sale you get paid, if you don't make a sale you don't. So how is that going to work if I haven't sold anything in a week? Or month? Just wish me luck.

originally this entry was a whole freaking page but I didn't want to go into extreme detail.

How's everyone doing after that huge snow storm that hit a few days ago? Well I can't say positive because lately of all the accidents I've been seeing are pretty gruesome as I'm seeing cars buried within the snow after crashing into a mound. I can't say much but really slow down, how hard is that? Usually the first snow of the season around my work area means that some douche with their expensive sports car just has to burn up the road to look cool and feel the rush and what happens? They slip on some snow and go out of control then crash. Lesson learned?

As for work, the snow really adds to the effect. I'm feeling a bit distant from my co-workers and feeling left out of the fun. My work schedule usually consists of set tasks as some of you know I work as a stock clerk, I take pride in my work and apparently that ain't good enough anymore because my department can't function as a team entirely. I could go and bitch about how I'm getting shit and no one else, its true and if it keeps up then there's going to be a serious talk once I man it up. Seriously, I get so much shit for not "doing my supposed work" but once I finally find proof that someone else isn't doing theirs' its suddenly makes me trying to get them into trouble and god forbid that. I know no job out there is perfect and I'm considering in a huge change in career because I don't know how long I'm going to last. I really want to get my books published and since the country is in a bad state I don't have the slightest clues if these are going to be good times to even launch them unless we get out of this depression. Sure it sounds like I want to make money but, once you share your stories more people will appreciate it.

And yet... I keep on trucking.

I'm not mad, just abit dumb founded that I got 3 notes from DA saying that "Again Anti-Naruhina pic" was in violation of copyright and was removed. My response to this, "meh", honestly I can understand on a few things that it was a rather crude pic of a guy shoving his own head up his ass. But here's the thing, I said I would remove the pic myself if I ever got a note from the original owner or someone who knows the person and wants it taken down but I guess DA did me a favor and just did it for me. But if anyone noticed, I got another Naruhina picture of a kid crying and a fat guy sitting in his chair about Sasuhina fics, those weren't taken down... yet...

I just want one thing answered to the person who reported it... Was it really for copyright? Or were you just butt hurt about the picture? If the latter is the case, I explained it in my text box under the picture if you can't take a joke then press the back button and leave. But if anyone knew, parodies don't fall under copyright or atleast shouldn't. You know what... I don't care anymore. This was my first violation because of a dumb pic where most people liked and others were mad about it. I'm not done with being a DA member but lately I fell out of touch with it.

Well nothing new except for I'm trying to find a second job because my current job is screwing around with me again. Last week was pure hell as I had more than 38 or 40 hours, and now this coming week its back down to... like almost over 10 because someone came back from vacation. Plus, we hired another guy while still having five guys already in a small department, he's good and everything but it just puts a damper on some of the people who are trying to make ends meat.

My web business isn't really prevailing and I'm glad I just didn't randomly quit my current job just to put one hundred percent into this web business. It's going at a snails pace, I might get lucky one week and then the next week I won't get any jobs at all. It's hell, especially what I charge some people for manual labor of what they want in the site. My grips sometimes are people who either want too much beyond my capability or ask me to do something but never come back for the results leaving me hanging. That's stressful, plus my mom doesn't like me doing this for some reason as she never really sees me getting the payment. Not to sound an ass but that's not really her business, sorry, but it's not but I'm glad she cares. I mostly get paid in paypal at times for out of state or checks.

Now for this 2nd job I'm looking for, it's not easy. I'm glad I still got the current job that one day it can suck then the next it can pick up. Some good, some bad. But here's the thing, I'm applying like crazy but never get any callbacks. Maybe my application isn't impressive? What's there to impress? You put down your information, work history, and references what's the deal? Can they call references before you even get the call for an interview? I get the feeling, "no" they can't but now a days I'm not sure.

Electronics, groceries, art supply, maintenance... I applied to it all. What the hell is going on? Is the country just on a 1 job minimum? HELL SOME PEOPLE CAN'T EVEN GET THE ONE! I'm so sick of being confused with other people at times that don't even want to apply to the one by my family. Why is this so freakin hard?! I look at help wanted signs, I go in, ask for an application, fill it out with my info proudly, hand it in, go about my business and wait for a call of some sort.

Well I hope everyone is doing better than me, because the part time jobs are a no go, full time is impossible to get around here. Maybe it's... just me, but lately... I've been thinking of going back to school... or going into the military... I know... I know... but what other choices do I have if I somehow lose the current job? It's hard finding a second one...

*Sigh*

All I really just want to do is write my book series... earn a good paycheck to live off of... live in a nice house with nice things, kids, a wife, maybe a few dogs...

Oh man, oh man there is so much to tell that I can barely type all of it. I went to Ocean City, Maryland two weeks ago with my family for a week and I have to say, once you get into something you don't want to quit or leave. A vacation was what I needed this summer and to get out of Ohio finally. It's been ages since I went to another state. All the good was that we weren't far from the beach when we got to our beach house and damn, I can't explain the beauty of a vacation is. I had freedom to do what I want (almost), got to pig out on sea food, pizza (though we had it about 4 to 5 times that week, ugh), shopping, played at the arcades. Also read my books "Zombie Survival Guide" and "Devil in White City".

But for the bad, well it starts with just trying to get to Ocean city and damn did it take so much time with constant stops, traffic jams, and passing accidents on the side of the roads (one van even blew up o_o dead serious). The other bad, was basically the room arrangements. I'm a big guy and sleep in a queen sized bed back at home, but having to share it with a 11 year old who tosses and turns often isn't pleasant even when he's kicking your back at night when you're trying to sleep. *feels back* ow... Other bad was the cable... oh gawd the cable. we had 3 tvs and they only got... 15 channels compared to what I got here. I know, I know, cable is different everywhere and that was a resort I stayed at. But seriously, who is going to watch the Church channel? We had like 2 or 3 of those. But atleast we had SciFi channel and I have to say, that was my saving grace for rainy days.

To wrap up the trip, I bought souvenirs for my co-workers at work that I have a good or somewhat adequateness with. Shot glasses really make the souvenirs worth it. As for my old Naruto-G group buddies who are still on deviantart.com, I got a souvenir of some sort for all of you too and it's not a shot glass. -_-; But something I have to get developed in order to share, and as well a scanner.


Speaking of the Naruto-G group... it's been awhile hasn't it? *Sigh* We all had fun haven't we? I know everyone has a life of their own and want to do other things, that's great, I just appreciate that you actually put up with me because I was rather pushy and demanding when it came to art. Yeah, I couldn't draw myself though I tried though crappy ms paint and figured, "Okay, let's try writing it out instead", and that sorta worked. I'm better at writing than drawing.

Well as you know the other story with the oc characters in Naruto-G is turning out abit better as I was writing out some short stories about the background in the story. And yet, not the freaking story itself *chuckles*, hey better to have a background to work its way up.